I cannot write, I'm not a writer

When we create, we become alive. We're making love to life. For every person is unique...Each of us has different perception of things. I don't write for a living. I don't go "I gotta write something", to me, writing is a hard work, it takes heart to do it, i don't go - tell people everything - cause I'm an extrovert yet introvert. I don't tell details for public. I keep in mind. The truth is — and I know this won’t be inspirational even if it is truthful — I have no wonderful stories that I absolutely must share. No moral messages, I’m just desperate to impart. No colorful characters that simply MUST be given a voice. I can come up with wonderful stories, moral messages, sadness, empathy, and colorful characters… but that’s work! (And please don’t get me started on ‘spec scripts’, which in my world that's "a lazy things" to do) One ever mentioned that she writes better than me, i don't mind, cause she writes for a living (and she better be good at it), One said I write not because i love to write, but there's another "meaning" behind it, which is not wrong and probably am. I write just to express my feeling, sometimes to convey what i had in mind. I'm not a writer, blogger, author, journalist, or whatever... I just write for fun and to tell you things i can't say directly to avoid certain issues. The applause and laughter in response to my writing is a nice reward, whatever! Anyway it's just a part of my thinking process: see - feel - rewind - write. I can't write. My writing sucks. So,what? It's freedom and democracy. Don't read what i write if you don't want to. Anyways, this is just a stupid writing,,,cos i'm not a writer. I don't care. Just don't go breaking my heart.