.....me.....

When i was a baby, guess i was only thinking to have a soothing arms of my mother, don't care of certain politeness...poo and pee here and there... When i turned five, live gave me a new experience, social awareness, ability to know the difference between right and wrong, hey, and this is the age where i learnt my Javanese language skill. ahahahha.. When i leaped to ten, the room is wider open. My sister was taken by her husband,,hehe,,no one to help me to colored our favorite coloring book anymore. I got a new friend, crazy about rollerskating - soon rollerblading, bicycle has been a part of me. First to learn martial art. First to give a boy in school sum peace of mind, leaving a mark on his body, made dad came to school to settle..hihi...owh, I learnt gymnastic too...but didn't last for long... By the age of 15, to a certain extent, was a pretty tomboy, still learning martial art, first to experienced monkey love - first to traveled abroad(between age 10 - 15), a cool teenage life, loved by people, don't bother about things, basket - volley ball crazy...and now, to my surprise, i decided to take a sewing course......huffhuff...out of nowhere.. Reaching twenty, life is rather miserable, a sudden maturity has arisen. Made a huge mistake, a stupid one precisely. Still active in sports and made some important decisions in life. 25 was my gold year. yes,it was. Great job, good salary, met great people. Still continue traveled to different places, get some exposure in life from different parts of the world. Now, I'm reaching thirty...Life is not as simple as it seemed. A wish to go back to the past and make it better, wish to say goodbye or sorry before he leave this world, wish to make a brand new surprise in life, feel like settling down, but lost sometimes. Wanna be - don't wanna be. Well, life is a circle. It goes round somehow. It won't wait for us to be ready.

Food is love

Dengan sedikit usaha, keringat, kesukaan, cinta, saya senang membuat semua ini menjadi nyata.....akhir minggu akan membuat masakan baru ah! semoga ada orang di rumah, jadi gak mubazir..hihi "Aplle Pie" "Asam - asam daging" "Cheese Cake" "Mashed Potato with minced meat balls" "Pastel Kentang" George Bernard Shaw once said, “There is no love sincerer than the love of food.” Where there is a fusion of continents and food, you’ll fall in love with both.

Journey that makes a man

“Time will heal the pain”. But for some cases, with time passes by, the pain gets deeper. One can say that they love a particular person so much but the action of love is zero. yes,indeed, it's hard when you talk about love and the control of feelings that you can't stop within yourself. A fool is someone who does not know but does not want to ask. and we all ever been a fool once or twice. We tends to leave what is important to us and give up on trying...or perhaps too weak to try?? Anyhow, in my case, the finishing line is not as important, it's the journey that matters. I have tendency to push myself to forget and forgive, and move on. I remember the good ones, and throw away the bad ones. But i do take my time to think, feel every pain within me, and learn from my mistakes. Yes, you can cheat others, but you can never cheat yourself. No matter how hard you try, you can always hear the sounds of your heart. Be sincere, do your best, though your finishing line is not as good as your wish. Seperti ucapan teman saya ini "

Indahnya hidup bukan seberapa banyak org mengenal kita,tetapi seberapa banyak org menjadi bahagia setelah mengenal kita"

Haattchuu

Pagi ini jadi bersin – bersin akibat naik becak di udara dingin semalam selama hampir 40 menit, tidak membawa jaket, tubuh jadi tidak bersahabat ditambah alergi dingin dan debu. Payah sekali. Si partner lagi ngambek, harus dibengkelkan hari ini,,,aahh,lama sekali ngambeknya….hiks ditambah memikirkan jumlah lembaran rupiah merah yang harus dijumlahkan untuk membayar si partner…..heewww…..rasanya kok bisa beli satu motor yah? Hiks. Tiba tiba malam tadi saya jadi sangat merindukan dia. Entah. Ingin rasanya mengirim pesan singkat, tapi saya mengurungkan niat. Ingin rasanya ditemani seperti malam malam sebelumnya. Rasanya saya akan menyimpan semua rasa ini, sementara waktu, untuk diri saya saja…menyimpan rasa rindu sampai jatuh tertidur. Yah, saya juga hanya manusia biasa. *galau*

Plead insanity

People claim insanity as part of their defense. They don't have to feel guilty for killing someone. *Lunatic...I wanna be one right now, before i start killing things.

choice

Princess Fiona: "I want what any princess wants - to live happily ever after..." Snow White: I'm sorry but this isn't working for me. , "I'm waiting to be rescued."

Saat ini...

saya ingin.... berlari - lari kecil di pantai dengan sepotong gaun pendek dan sendal jepit menghirup aroma tanah di saat hujan bergelung di sofa, menatap air hujan yang jatuh dari pinggir jendela makan strawberry segar dengan cream putih buatan sang oma duduk di arena al-fresco sambil menikmati blueberry pie dan bir dingin...or juice perhaps....hummm....?? bertemu kamu lagi, memeluk, menghirup aroma vanila, hanya untuk memastikan kamu baik baik saja berjalanjalan di hujan bersama sang kekasih menatap bintang di langit dan tersenyum karena tahu saya sudah berada di belahan dunia lain bersepeda di udara dingin dengan jaket dan topi wool aaaahhh, saya tidak terlalu peduli dengan saya yang sekarang hidup naik turun, capek bekerja, bosan mencari uang saya tidak peduli dengan gelar guru terbaik se-jabodetabek, ga penting! tidak peduli apakah kamu pedulikan saya atau tidak, tidak peduli si mobil mau merengek atau mengembik, terserah saja. saya sedang ingin mengosongkan pikiran,,,,, dan bersantai sejenak saja. *hidup ini indah*